"Yes"

I say you are good

not to make you sad

if " yes" was the answer...

am I bad??

Still, my heart says...

there are some good hidden

beside the veil of dark shadow...

there's an Eden

Your presence is not noticed

but

I can feel your whisper

that silently says

Hey, I am here ...

to enlighten your days

Was that a thought ...

that evoked me......

I was in incorporeal...

Beautiful corals in the sea...

If "Yes" was my answer...

to let you know.....

that "Yes" is sometimes

as cruel as "no".....

Then what would you do?

Jump off the cliffs?

and gang the river dry?

or freeze your soul...stiff?

Only if my answer was "Yes"

- Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini
Time-11:26pm, Wednesday
24th November 2010
Mitrapark, Kathmandu

A mixed visualisation

I turn on the diary to vomit out...

that was undigestable to me...

but couldn't find a page ...to note.......



Because it was missing...

a day was missing...

a date was missing and

so was a year........



As I walk.....

saw glittering darkness......

"The Festival of Lights"

Beheld a house!

No less than a fully adorned bride...

she was gloomy, though!



Also saw a worn-out hut with ...

two shivering diyas on its threshold!

And appeared so happy! 



Two emotions visited me today!

Have and have not!

I have things which I don't want to have!

And,

I have not yet got the things that I want to have!

I was unsatisfied and I am,

till this hour ...

and I don't know...

whether the degree of dissatisfaction persists or depresses!


Felt the battles of thoughts...

Justling to win!

feed the poor? or uplift the poor?



Alas.

There are half a dozen millions and billions of thoughts.....

some are building &

some are ruining the world!



A mixed visualization of life!

As the world glitters with lights!

There still is the darkness!



-Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"

6th Nov 2010

10:33 am, Saturday,

Mitrapark, Kathmandu