Friday, August 16, 2019

Within her (Lost amidst laughter)

That soft ambience.
Some glitters, some lives.
Claps and laughter.
The warmth inside this room,
Though the world seems frozen!
Everyone is smiling.

She sees no sorrow in their eyes.
Probably, they too are good,
In veiling them.
She ponders.

Again claps the crowd 
And laughs every corner.
She tries floating with the waves.
Claps and fails.
Laughs and fails.
Barely an eye notices.

The roots are deep in her.
She has concealed,
Enough.
Between the mocking walls.
She had spent-
Years of nights awake!
And as the dawn slides,
She pretends.
Pretends to be the shine.
While the dark engulfs her from within.
And the night appears!

When the silence of night whispers,
'You concealed it well today,
Just do it one more day again.'
And the days kept on being added.
Her smiles veil it well,
For the years gone.
And her stories remained,
Within her...


Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel 'Hridayaninadini'

Sunday, July 28, 2019

Within her (In the forest of many crowds)


In the forest of many crowds,
Lived a tiny girl. 
All of them, phoney. 
She never thought!
Some smiled sweet-
To poke that knife from behind!
And some pulled her down...
To rule and to raise their reign!
She was glad that she was just-
A spirit.
For, they could never kill her.
Or an inch of her being.
So she lived in that forest.
Underneath the concealed agony.



Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"


Saturday, July 13, 2019

Unfinished.


Dragged to the old lane,
The string of kites.
An old unfinished story.
And through the babbling fights,
She stood dwindling-
The past was not painful-
But why it pricked,
Her bare feet in that old lane.


Her laughter rejoiced.
And so were her tears.
Amidst the mocking faces,
She preserved her silence.
It has always been there,
With her, within her.
Her shadow, her silence…
Searches no more home.
Feel her in her soliloquies,
As silent as her eyes…
None will know her.
None shall reach…
To her old unfinished story.
Through that lane-
Dusty and dark, yet loved.
Let her story remain abandoned.
For, she won’t be she,
She will laugh her soul out,
And cry till it rain!
Her eyes will be vibrant.
And will let go her silence…
Let the story remain unfinished…

She plucks out the thorn
And it bleeds...

Her bare feet!




Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"

Friday, May 3, 2019

I am a human!


I just realized-
I am a human now!
Bequeathed with the power!
From another human!

I mock aloud…
As someone falls down.
And extend no hands.
I feel proud of-
Being the supreme…
And chop everything-
The voiceless beings.
If not this one,
I know I can create a new machine!
At the end…
I am a human, indeed.

When I am brave enough-
To discard what comes on my plate!
For having a little salt and little taste!
I ignore them who starve to death…
To trash…
And I laughingly toss my cake!

For the sake of this beauty…
I tear up the skins of that beast.
Grind its bones to have a flawless skin.
To glimmer under the neon light!
I break those black wrists!
Yes, I am a human now!

I do a charity.
And nail my name.
On their leather, so charred!
Let my world shine-
And theirs’ ruin!
Who cares…
I am a human, now.
In an empire of the mighty plastic!

I climb up, stepping others down.
I find pleasure!
The misery of others’ as my clowns!
I care not if the world is on fire!
And my deeds engulf the nature!
I do care!
I care for something that concerns me!
I care for the colours-
And whom to hire!
I will pet someone’s freedom.
Shackle them.
Captivate them.
And break them!
“Aww” the world like me, shall be!


I rise when they fall!
I am a human after all!



Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel 'Hridayaninadini'

Picture credit: blogs.nelson.wisc.edu (the great split)

Sunday, April 21, 2019

Of the street and life


I seek a bard, deep in me!
While on my voyage in the street!
With no argosy, confront where I,
A thousand stories!
Limned on their face,
Thoughts as high as tides!
Some rough, some smooth,
Inhumed under their smiles,
Bestrewed pieces of life,
I walk, reading them all!

Blithe, a few are not…
A few fulgent in their glory,
Gloomy some, as their shadowy past!
And a few whited sepulchres
With their phoney chivalry!
And a few trysts that should never last!
I cherish, beholding them all!

Why I am happy?
Wondered never I,
When I am lost,
I find more of me!
Amidst these evanescent faces in the street…




Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"


Thursday, December 20, 2018

The emptiness revisits!

That emptiness visits her again…
In the frozen corner of her broken veins!
She taps one and let it bleed-
The faintness of her past refrains!
She runs to catch hold of that space-
Of no worth and just in vain!
Time as slender as a reed…
Slips from her hand-
To not to be found again!
Had she known- she was not a centre!
She would have acted the same!
But why then this emptiness revolved-
Within her and followed her in the murky lane!
She yells at the top of this silence-
And wishes not to be heard…
She grabs that rug of strength…
And wordlessly walks through the rain!


(c) Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"


Wednesday, December 12, 2018

That bird in us!

When the melancholic evening,
Brings to her those delusions-
Of being at her nest-
Of being loved-
And cared with a delight…

She sighs and turns behind,
And to behold nothing-
But a broken string…
Attached to her wings!

In that pursuit-
Of crossing those limits…
Seldom had she thought…
She would be encaged forever… 
When she cut her strings and flew-
Deluded she was- of being free!

When she clutches the bough-
And stares at this vastness…
That caged her spirit…
In this melancholic evening-
She sings no songs about being bold!
But- about those longings to be at home…


(c) Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"


Thursday, November 29, 2018

Words to the wise!

Seek the darkness-
When you begin your journey…
Into the benighted tunnel!
That light at the end-
Will not astound you anymore!

Seek that warmth within you-
When the world goes frigid and cold…
The withered spirit of the last battle!
And a lost caravan!
This warmth shall make you bold!

Do not hitch your wagons-
Anymore to stars-
But to the dust-
Where you bloomed from!

In the rear!
Expect to not to expect!
For, life is not always about-
Floating with those streams!
Neither against them!
But to- seek that solace-
Amidst the crippled you!

Indeed is a two cents’ worth…


Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"
Picture credit:https://www.wallpaperup.com/42438/tunnel_light_painting_fantasy_dark_cave_abstract_landscapes.html

Sunday, September 16, 2018

Drops...

And after that crowd,
I grabbed my umbrella-
And my solitude-
Took the narrow lane!
Gazed at the sky-
The monsoon clouds-
And loneliness!
Perfect!
Pearls from the broken necklace-
It rained…

Alone, I thought I was-
Then I harked!
I could hear them talk-
As loud as they could-
In that rhythmic tone-
One shouted and the other followed!
Eavesdropped, I-
For what they could be talking?
About their journey!

The clattered rhythm again…
Guessed, I-
About their journey, must be-
From the puddle to the pond-
Meandering through the rivulet-
To the river-
And levitating to the mightiness-
They chattered loud-
Felt, I
they gloated their salvation!
Levitated to the mighty blue and again-
Reached to the earth-
They belonged to!

I could sense their happiness-
As they gently slid down to the earth-
And disappeared on her arms-
Thin clouds now-
I could only hear a few of them-
They have met their destiny-
And will be back again-

Those drops of rain...


Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"

Picture source: http://www.1zoom.me

Monday, July 16, 2018

You!

When you are deep in sleep,

And under the blanket, something creeps,


Scratching with her eight rough limbs!


And amidst the dark,


You hold her in your hand!


To know who she is!


However brave, you stand


Against the world and adversity!


A single big house spider!


Can make you realize!


How chicken-hearted!


You can be!






Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"


Art credit: Oswaldo Guayasamin Fear Scream Hands

Monday, May 14, 2018

Seized in the freedom!

What it feels like- if you are set free-
Yet caught in the freedom?

A sharp knife hanging at your throat!
Between you and the world-
You find yourself ployed!

Avouched to breathe!
All, except the air!
Your blood turns blue-
Yet you are not allowed to yell!

You are told to share what yearned-
Your heart!
At the cost of your life!

The manacles cut!
And a cage bought!
Set you free- to fly high,
While your wings bleed!
Gathering your chopped feathers!
They will dust off the crown!

You scream with no voice!
The ears plugged!
Thousands of clapping hands!
Wave at you!

Still- you want that freedom?


Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"
Art work: 
Gilded Cage Painting by Sara Riches

Saturday, April 28, 2018

The Kamogawa...

When what that shines brighter,
Than those stars in the sky,
Are the flashes of airplanes…
And the city glitters-
With thousands of lanterns, lamps, and lights-
Raw and pure…
The fragrance of water-
That breeze fetches for me.
I sat on the verdant moss-
Besides her, keeping my chin-
Over my knee…
And silently observed-
How beautiful, is she…
Her meandering feathers-
Slithering over the bed of rocks-
Her musings hold the glitters of lights!
As the scales of a serpent-
Glaring our eyes…
Unlike the crowd of thoughts
.. how silent, she is!
As the beauty floats-
In her sacred form…
The winging of Kamo…
And the rising of the moon...
Ruffles as the reflections-
Over her silken body…
How radiant, is she…
Mutely she twines-
Through a heart of the Kyoto…
If she does not take your heart-

I wonder- if you have the one…


Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"
Photo copyright: Yoshida Hiroshi, Kamo River

Sunday, April 15, 2018

Long gone!

When this spring brings to me,
Some silence-
While I walk down the lane-
Thousands, stepped on.
I knew down in me-
A lost child seeks-
The warmth!
I certainly look for-
No words-
But that silence…
Where I could lie down!
And feel-
The pain that strangled
You!
Then, 
I have no regrets!
You must be a light!
That light
Which woke me up-
From the nightmare!


Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"

Photo credit: Albert Anker

Friday, December 15, 2017

Yes, I got a friend.

And another fine morning,
I sat on the same wooden stump,
to feel those pearly dews-
And to introspect-
How beauteous, that silence could be!

And, I saw that love coming to me,
As fast as she could run-
She came and sat beside me.
We did not share our words.
The warmth of possession-
Though, overwhelmed.

Yes, I got a friend.
Unlike me, she talks less.
But, she can express!
Deepest of joy and saddest of her thoughts!
Just through her sparkling eyes!
I envy sometime…
I wish I could do the same. 

I kept my hands over her. 
She wagged her tiny tail-
Looked into my eyes.
And rested her head!
Yes, I got a friend…


Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel "Hridayaninadini"

Wednesday, November 1, 2017

I saw my anger speak!

When my words were confined,
And my thoughts suppressed,
And my fear being nurtured-
I saw my anger speak!

It spoke-
The words, no-one heard!
Drenching my lashes and heart!
My thoughts yelled-
And yet the silence remained!

Within me-
The agony stood-
Though no-one saw!
But, ssh!
I heard my tears!
As loud as they could be!
Roaring at the top of my mind!
And yet the silence remained!
My anger, like me!
Stood numb!
But, I saw my anger speak!

When my freedom of being myself-
Shackled!
A drop of hope!
Drying out on the concrete!
I saw my anger speak!
A thousand words of silence!
And a thousand phrases of pain!
And thousands of them!
Running silently again!

When I crawled to the corner!
My shadow-
Stood numb!
But, I saw my anger speak!
As silent as ever, it could be…




















Sanjeeta Sharma Pokharel 'Hridayaninadini'

Photocredit: https://i.pinimg.com/originals/95/af/51/95af518ed6eddc418935eaaea2718cec.jpg